Where we goin’, and what are we doing in this handbasket?*

This lovely pastel by Ylli Haruni can be purchased at http://fineartamerica.com/featured/cat-in-the-basket-ylli-haruni.html. I didn't pay to use the image, so the least I can do it plug it.
This lovely pastel by Ylli Haruni can be purchased at http://fineartamerica.com/featured/cat-in-the-basket-ylli-haruni.html. I didn’t pay to use the image, so the least I can do it plug it.

I was doing pretty well, and then I made the fatal mistake.  A couple of days ago, out of nowhere, I weighed myself. And discovered that these past two months of blogging and forming new habits has led to a two-pound weight gain.

And it all went straight to hell.

I tried to shake it off, pretending to myself that it doesn’t really matter, I look fine, I’m in it for the long haul, yadda yadda. “Coincidentally”, I went to Costco that afternoon and bought, yes, the dreaded XXL Peanut M&M’s. And a giant box of chocolate chip cookies, nicely done up in sub-packs of six for “portion control”. And one of those big square boxes of chocolate-covered raisins. And a big pack of rice-cake rolls. And a big box of those cranberry-“thin” breakfast wafers.

I’ve mainly been hitting the chocolate covered raisins so far. Raisins make my stomach hurt if I eat too many, so I suck off the chocolate and leave raisin skeletons.

I was lying in bed last night, my stomach hurting, feeling dispirited and wired on theobromine, and decided, “once and for all” (where have I heard that before?), that I just need to suck it up and STOP eating on the couch. After a couple of antacids, I was able to drift off firmly holding to this resolve.

Which lasted until exactly one minute after lunch today, when I licked off a new batch of raisins. (Got that acrostic licked too!)

This is so frustrating and discouraging.

But I want to do two things: 1. Hold Fast to my 52 weeks of trying to improve my eating habits, and 2. Avoid “all or nothing” mentality.

So, I am counting on you, my vast audience of supporters.

This week’s habit goals:

  •  Continue to eat breakfast at the table.
  •  Eat lunch at the table. 
  • Immediately after lunch, meditate for 15 minutes. (THEN I can lie on the couch and get to work on the XXL Peanut M&M’s. The raisins are about gone.)

Are ya with me? Send me your woes, your triumphs, your deep thoughts, the dumb joke you heard at the office.

Namaste (Is that something to eat?)

*This is apparently an old joke, but my daughter used it in context recently and I thought it was hilarious.

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7 thoughts on “Where we goin’, and what are we doing in this handbasket?*

  1. Sorry you are having the struggle with food. When I have issues with my life (usually not getting enough done), I just think, well tomorrow’s another day. I try to change my schedule around so I have to do things differently. For me, getting around other people instead of being at home all day is usually the key for me. Yesterday was one of those hard days so today I’m getting out, even though I don’t know what I’m going to do yet. What if you go for a walk after lunch? I know it’s hot outside but find some shade to walk in. The hot part of the year is almost over. Take a walk and listen to a podcast or an audio book to have something for your mind to do.

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  2. It’s okay! Today or tomorrow, you will eat more vegetables. Your stomach will feel better. You didn’t kill anyone. You didn’t suddenly develop diabetes. I did a lot of comfort eating for a couple days before my doctors appointment. Now I am trying to focus more o veggies again. When you’re not eating the way you want to, don’t say anything to yourself that you wouldn’t say to me

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      1. Yose,

        overeating is not disease light. It’s full bore addictive behavior. I’m not speaking from any sort of higher than position. If I’d weigh myself, I probably put on 20 lbs in the last couple months. But that said, there are real ways to deal with overeating. I don’t think exercising increased self-will has a real good track record, 12 step-wise.

        Pretty dang brave of you, growing up in public like this. As the Josey Wales was wont to opine, “I’m proud to know ye.”

        Hey, send me yer dang e-mail addy, k?

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      2. Yose,

        overeating is not disease light. It’s full bore addictive behavior. I’m not speaking from any sort of higher than position. If I’d weigh myself, I probably put on 20 lbs in the last couple months. But that said, there are real ways to deal with overeating. I don’t think exercising increased self-will has a real good track record, 12 step-wise.

        Pretty dang brave of you, growing up in public like this. As the Josey Wales was wont to opine, “I’m proud to know ye.”

        Hey, send me yer dang e-mail addy, k?

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