When I started this blog a few weeks back, I had high hopes. I was going to change one habit each week for 52 weeks until my overeating compulsion was cured.
To my dismay, I’m barely hanging on to the minor changes I have set so far. And the BIG change, the change I am trying to ignore because it’s just too hard, looms over me, miasma-style.
The BIG change is eating AT THE TABLE.
My big comfort, both physical and emotional, is eating supine on the couch, while doing something else (reading, doing crossword puzzles, watching Netflix). It’s my go-to behavior, and always carries with it a huge sigh of anticipatory contentment. Its ill effects (weight-gain, loss of physical conditioning, chronic neck pain, esophageal reflux), don’t hold a candle to that first bite taken with kitchen towel around my neck, shoes kicked off, salt-shaker at the ready, and puzzle-book in hand.
Oh, what to do, what to do? Talk about first-world problems. If only thinking about people who don’t have couches, salt-shakers, kitchen towels, or puzzle books, (let alone food) were sufficient to change my behavior.
Given my lack of progress, I have had a hard time making myself put out another perky blog-post.
But I’ve decided not to dessert. [sic]
I’m going to try to stick out the 52 weeks, and continue to make the changes as I can.
So here’s a report on how the goals are going so far:
- Ensure availability of prepped fruits/veggies at all times: 85% success
- Include fruit/veg with every meal or snack: 75% success
- Prepare thermoses of water with breakfast: 60% success and improving
- Eat breakfast at the table: 10% success and going nowhere
And for next week:
Suck it up and eat breakfast at the table. If I’m on the run, a portable smoothie is ok.