Ok, and…we’re off!

So I have this listNeed we say more? of 52 things that I hope to make habits a week at a time, and at the end of the year my eating faults will be magically cured. As I look over the list, I see that Item 1 is: “stop weighing myself”. Heck, I did that several months ago when I first thought about doing this blog, and I don’t need the scale to tell me that I ate 6 large, chocolate dipped biscotti on top of a full day’s food yesterday. The biscotti were delicious, and they accompanied my acrostic nicely. But eating that many left me with this “full dry” feeling in my stomach (which I ignored), and heartburn (for which I had to take drugs).

The ultimate goal is to un-link eating from doing other things, particularly puzzles and Netflix. (Oh, to have that “mindful eating” thing!)   Unfortunately, “mindful” to me feels kind of like “boring”. I’m not against it, “mind” you, it’s just not my personality.

Some habits are better changed a little at a time, some are better stopped all at once. Smoking is allegedly recommended as an “all at once” stop, yet using the patch is a way many smokers use to taper off and then quit. Some alcoholics go the total abstinence AA way, and some successfully use the “moderate” approach. I think which works depends on the individual and the depth of the addiction. I can substitute similar but less harmful behaviors, or try making a radical change.

The key is to develop alternate resting/soothing behaviors that are rewarding. (Come on, endorphins, I can’t dance ALL the time!) I don’t think I can take the radical approach, because it become all or nothing, and it’s too easy to say: “OK, nothing” and dive into the “XXL” bag of peanut M&M’s (available at a Costco near you).

So, back to the list. It’s too easy to say Week One will be “stop weighing myslef”, and it’s too hard to say Week One will be “stop eating while doing puzzles on the couch”. So I am going to pick:

Make sure there are fresh, washed, cut up ready to go fruits and veggies available at all times.

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Fresh start. And again. And again. And again. And again.

Should I get back into photography? How do you stay in a hobby you're mediocre at?
Should I get back into photography? How do you stay in a hobby you’re mediocre at?

Well I was going to make this a blog about what to do next, now that I’m retired. I went out and bought 4 books on how to blog and make money at it. I hated them all. I didn’t get in on the right part of the curve, and I don’t want to have the self-discipline required. I am through with self-discipline.

Or not. Actually, I still need self-discipline, because too many days are ending up on the couch with an acrostic and a chest full of chocolate smears.

Really the main issue remains, always and forever for me, food. If I don’t feel like getting up in the morning, remembering that I made muffins and I have an unfinished puzzle will do the trick — at least I’ll get from the bed to the couch.

I have less vavoom because I eat too much (and the wrong stuff). I don’t exercise enough because it’s easier to lie on the couch and eat. I’m tired because I don’t exercise enough, which makes me want to lie on the couch and eat. And then I haven’t accomplished much, so I feel blah, so I want to lie on the couch…

But I want to have a more vibrant old age than this. And I am an inveterate starter-overer.

So I have made a list of 52 things to do to help get my food habits under control, to see if self-fulfillment follows. Or at least see if I didn’t deteriorate too much over the next year. (Is the eating the symptom or the cause? Yes.) I will do each one for a week, then (presumably) keep that new habit/plan/idea as I pick up the next one.

I’ll report on it every week. Or not. And someone may read it and enjoy/relate/want to join in. Or not. Welcome.